i allowed myself to browse petfinder.com today. it was painful. i couldn't stop crying from a combination of things: first of all, it made me miss jordan all the more. i love him and will never stop loving him. second, i felt like i was cheating on him - only three weeks gone and i'm already looking for another dog! what kind of heartless bitch must i be? but third, and the main reason i was looking, is because of all these dogs and other pets that don't have homes.
i don't want to - and could never - replace jordan. i got him as a tiny little munchkin, had him his whole life, and he was always there for me when i was happy or sad through some tough years. he was just like me in every way - stubborn, did what he wanted when he wanted, and had this was to make you feel guilty when he didn't get his way. i think he would want us to get another dog - another dog to keep my dad occupied, to bring smiles, to greet you when you come home (because let's be real, cats: the difference between dogs and cats), and to carry on his legacy.
i found a black lab straight away that i fell in love with and i can't explain. i tried hard to not get attached - and am still trying - because maybe she is already adopted or maybe we would not be a good fit for her or maybe my parents won't let me get her. my mother is printing off her picture to guilt my father. perfect heather/jordan method to get what we want. we shall see.
i described her as an early christmas present.
jordan, doing what he wanted and not caring that my parents did not want him in the bushes.
brb.
